Ughhhh
I haven’t posted in nearly a month, and I’m in a deep funk, so I don’t know if posting is the right way to go…. I’m currently in Florida…nearly half way through my month long trip to the US. My current thoughts aren’t very positive….
- My kids are treating each other more horribly than usual. Not only that, but they don’t show any respect to me, my parents or any other authority figure. I feel that this is a reflection on me, and not a positive one.
- Being religiously observant with family that isn’t sucks…no sucks doesn’t begin to describe it. I have never felt so alone religiously in my life. Firstly, I’m rather apathetic about my Judaism…despite being Orthodox, so it is even harder when I do "minimum" and I can’t get any support for that. Shabbat with children under ten without an eruv, or with a semi-eruv….keeping kosher when your kosher dishes are being treyfd…early shabbat…how many things have I had to transgress for Kibud Av v’ Em….and even that is being kept up on a wire.
- Tomorrow will be gatherings with other family members, and other issues will come up.
I really need a vacation…from parenting, from my family…but within Judaism. I don’t see it coming up in the near future.
sorry to hear you’re having a tough time. no words of wisdom to offer but thinking of you.
Comment by fern chasida — August 10, 2009 @ 6:39 am
Me too. My trips to chu”l are a great change of pace for me, for various reasons.
Maybe you can take a shorter trip next time?
In my experience kids fight more when we are upset or the atmosphere is tense.
Comment by mother in israel — August 11, 2009 @ 11:03 am
Hi.
This is Avraham Saltoun form Armon Ha Natsiv.
It is easy to see that you are putting work on top of the priority, classic American, BTW.
By all standards and eyes, you need this vacation, from parenting as an emergency measure before something worse happens.
This translates into leaving the kids with Ron while he will be absent from work a few days, if not a week, NO MATTER WHAT.
If this is a tough sell, contact your rav on marital coach.
He can also call me for questions (I am not a rav or coach though).
regards.
Comment by Avraham Saltoun — August 19, 2009 @ 5:58 am